I am 18 years old and I have been battling many mental health issues for some time now and am wondering if anything is mentally wrong with me. I kicked drugs about four months ago, and have stuck to it. I did it on my own, however, and went completly crazy and lost my mind for a while. I had to quit my job, and I didn't know if I would ever be stable again. I dealt with a very hard transition after quitting drugs, and after a while seemed to be doing fine. I have found that I go in and out of social anxiety. I'll be confident one moment, and the other I get so nervous I think I'm going to explode. Now I have just been staying home in fear of this. I have also experienced a blackout in a social setting and an anxiey attack that made me sweat, I felt weight on my chest, and I was disoriented. A lot of the time when I am out in public, I feel out of it and confused and nervous. I have had a lack of motivation, tiredness and aweful pain in my back. My body has been falling apart with illness, infection and pain. I don't know what's wrong with me and feel that some of the only times I am comfterable and confident are the times I 've gotten drunk since I quit the hard drugs. I am not dependent because it is only recreational. I know I can feel good and happy oon my own I just don't know how. Is there any advise you have on what could possibly be wrong with me? I know there has to be a chemical imbalance or something because this is not me.